>>76460250
I lift to be big and strong. I lift to be the person that I visualize myself as in my mind. I am a body dysmorphic twink who dreams of being big and strong like the fictional and non-fictional giants I idolized as a kid.
I have come to the conclusion that I will never be satisfied with my body no matter what and now I pretty much just exist between states of hypomania and depression with seething rage just below the surface.