>>76789909
i've reached enlightenment. after spending a full year of doing amphetamines to a disgusting degree, i learned how to not masturbate despite being maximum horny, for weeks on end. now that i am sober again, the flesh no longer desires, and the mind says masturbation is peak monkey business. not fit for my buddha mindpowers any longer. now you might say, anon, buddhists say to get in touch with your monkey mind. true! however, they do not tell you to give in to your baser impulses, nay. rather, you should dominate your inner monkey, absolutely shit on it while at the same time being friends with it. basically you need to slowfuck your inner retard into submission and stockholm-syndrome levels of sick love and understanding both ways, or something. all this to say that i can go however long i want without even getting a boner. i go on /fit/ to view images and webms of women, simply to test myself, and nothing happens. women in person no longer even register. all that matters is me, God, Jesus, and the ever-lasting quest for the holy grail. at first i thought, shit, maybe i've meditated myself into being gay, but no. i don't even fiend for bromance any longer. i float around, viewing everyone from a completely detached vantage point - soaring high above every normie and autist that i see. no that's not right.. i don't _see_ people, they are simply perceived. seen through, though, maybe? anyways, im NOT gay, women are ONLY for purposes of recreation and family, maybe to bully or something idk. Christ is King.