>>11337950
Getting choked by a guy as he fucks me and egging him on to take it further and further until he snuffs me. Feeling him hesitate and reaching my hands up to keep his wrapped around my neck, struggling to get the words "do it" out. And that encouragement being all he needs to start really going at it, telling me how many times he's thought about doing it whenever we fucked.
Ironically I used to struggle with suicidal ideation when I was younger, but fetishizing it has made any desire to actually go through with it disappear.