I'm an ugly beta male in my mid 30s. In every single workplace or college environment I become the loser loner that nobody talks to within a week of starting.

I haven't had any friends since school, and even then I didn't socialise with them outside of school after around the age of 13.

I haven't had a girlfriend or date or any interest from women ever. I've read about the blackpill and know that it all accords with reality.

Any advice that allegedly fixes the above points seems like ramshackle artifice. Going to clubs or pubs or hobby groups, "just" talking to people, online dating: it's all a humiliation ritual that only normies can succeed at. There's the added humiliation that none of it is "necessary" (physically, financially), meaning people would literally sense the patheticness on me if I did any of it. They'd think I was stupid and desperate, that I'd be someone who was acting like a 1950s caricature ("Just wear a suit and walk in with a firm handshake!"), potentially resulting in widespread humiliation (maybe even social media virality). Being a loser doesn't remove this humiliation; I wouldn't go outside without proper hygiene either.

I've come to see all socialising, whether informal or formal, in groups or with individuals, as a "heads they win, tails I lose" rigged game where people simply assert the preexisting social hierarchy to either insult, ignore, or take advantage of me. If people are in a situation where they don't simply want me to go away as soon as possible, they will try to exploit me in some way, which they will predict they can do because they instinctually (or factually) know that they fit in more than me with other normies, so they will face no consequences if they try to run me over.

I can't count on passing any process that involves even the slightest human discretion in the judgement process. So being fired from work is always a worry.

>currently travelling
>randomly download an epub of a biography of a famous contemporary figure who's really rich, after seeing it mentioned on Twitter
>start reading it on my phone in subway
>"He was extremely shy and nerdy. He met his wife in his first week of college after randomly being assigned as her study partner. After months of studying together, he asked her out."
>be me, reading this as an ugly mid 30s loser with no female attention ever, knowing that every female that ever interacted with me has either been visibly disgusted or politely treated me like an unexploded bomb
>felt like I was punched in the gut

>>715085954
The Mayans were right
We should have listened

>>212455132
Superman Returns is older than Superman 4 was when Returns came out

guys i am an idiot. i bought a 4k blu-ray thinking it came with a digital copy, but it didn't. i don't own a 4k blu-ray player, just a regular one. what the fuck do i do.