>>8107948
So, small update, my old boss called me last week and asked if I wanted to come back to work for him. One of his other employees needs to take some time off to see his dying mother, just for a month, and I would be filling in for him. I haven't gotten any other leads yet on an acting gig (mostly because I haven't gotten off my ass and done it yet) and I've been more and more worried about my finances, so I reluctantly accepted the offer. I start this Monday.
Even though I'm only gonna be doing this for a month, I still can't shake this dread that I've been feeling. This isn't what I want at all, man. Going back to work at my old job, feels like I'm regressing, like I'm still just stuck in the past and not facing the future moving forward. Can't back out now, though, already made a commitment. I'm not gonna do my boss dirty like that by quitting already.
This whole thing might turn out to be a blessing in disguise for me, since I at least have a reason to leave the apartment now. Maybe I'll soon have the motivation to actually give a shit about myself, and start actually trying to fulfill my passions. No more wallowing in misery, I hope...
Sorry about the last paper, didn't really see how blurry it was when I posted it (I was drunk at the time) so here's a better-quality one. This was taken in Zion National Park a couple days later. The greatest thing about these parks is the complete silence you experience, something a city slicker like me never gets to have. The drive through south Utah was something magical too. I'd like to return there someday, make sure I wasn't just imagining all that beauty.