>>535826424
after realizing how draining interacting with me is I don't really get how my friends can put up with me, I've been delving through interests that I refused to acknowledge in the past and none of my friends are really into those things so there's been this feeling of isolation from others that has been bothering me
of course this calls for meeting new people that share those interests, but the issue is that I now know how much I ask from people just by being me, and how rare it is that they want to deal with that
>>535828581
I used to be like this and the only way out was experience, if you couldn't tell that x meant y yesterday that means you now know what it means when you see it today, eventually developing a sense for it as the patterns start to form in your head