>>41374813
Ended up being sunday, but I guess better late than never, right?
>>41378665
>I don’t remember my last post again
I believe the one I replied to in >>41315282. A lot of dysphoria stuff, loneliness and the like.
>Need to stop seeing the therapist it’s no longer worth it
How come? Tell me about it.
>I’m just tired ya know? I want this to stop. Not wait. I keep trying and for what. It changes nothing. I am sick.
I get that you must be exhausted. If you feel stuck now is as good a time as any to take a step back and look at the things you are trying and where things are presently headed.
>>41379142
What makes you feel this way, Anon?
>>41379707
I'm always happy to welcome someone back, no matter how long ago the last time was. I hope we can be good for you this time around as well! It sounds like you made a ton of progress crawling out of a deep pit. I'm happy for you in that regard!
>Does anyone have any advice on how to break that cycle?
>I know there's no real other answer other than to "just do it", but i'm just having such a hard time...
In general, as another Anon suggested, the best thing that comes to mind is that you should lean on other people for this. It sounds like that scares you though, so I think we should talk about what it is you are afraid of there.
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>>40341865
>40341890
>>40341953
>>40342057
>>40342113
>getting low on myself about it hasn't helped me out, that much is obviously.
Yes, it is draining, motivation killing. Developing a healthy contrarianism in the face of these thoughts has helped me a great deal but it often trips people up if you do it "from outside". Though some people can be snapped out of lashing at themselves when they are told "don't be mean to someone I care for" by a loved one. Also, thank you for providing the context, it was just a hunch and I sure as hell wouldn't be able to infer things from it besides a gut feeling. Have you seen the post another anon made about now allowing oneself to make mistakes (>>40344187)? Might be related.
>I really don't like my emotions all that much.
It helps to name them and ascribe a positive utility to them. Think of them like an immune system. It's primary function does not prevent it from causing allergic reactions to happen. Example, fear tries to keep you away from danger. Anger tries to make you power through an obstacle, and so on. There was a silly comic on that subject I could dig up.
>I'm cutting out the part of my me that wants some kind of emotional catharsis
Relatable. There is a time and a place for these things and sometimes we gotta grit and bear.
>I'm glad you have some more peace in your life.
Hope to see you on this side of the fence sooner than you imagine.
>I'm glad you had someone to stand by you, to help you along those struggles.
It is definitely something that informed my "people need people" world view.
>>40341865
>40341890
>>40341953
>>40342057
>>40342113
>getting low on myself about it hasn't helped me out, that much is obviously.
Yes, it is draining, motivation killing. Developing a healthy contrarianism in the face of these thoughts has helped me a great deal but it often trips people up if you do it "from outside". Though some people can be snapped out of lashing at themselves when they are told "don't be mean to someone I care for" by a loved one. Also, thank you for providing the context, it was just a hunch and I sure as hell wouldn't be able to infer things from it besides a gut feeling. Have you seen the post another anon made about now allowing oneself to make mistakes (>>40344187)? Might be related.
>I really don't like my emotions all that much.
It helps to name them and ascribe a positive utility to them. Think of them like an immune system. It's primary function does not prevent it from causing allergic reactions to happen. Example, fear tries to keep you away from danger. Anger tries to make you power through an obstacle, and so on. There was a silly comic on that subject I could dig up.
>I'm cutting out the part of my me that wants some kind of emotional catharsis
Relatable. There is a time and a place for these things and sometimes we gotta grit and bear.
>I'm glad you have some more peace in your life.
Hope to see you on this side of the fence sooner than you imagine.
>I'm glad you had someone to stand by you, to help you along those struggles.
It is definitely something that informed my "people need people" world view.
>>40289590
It's borderline impossible to feel it until you experience it, I'm happy you get to!
>>40290768
>>40291128
>>40291156
(1/2)
>I've given up on any relationships at all really, so I don't even know if it will matter.
Trust me that, as much as it makes sense to you right now, it is not going to help you with your goals to remain steadfast in it. Do you mean romantic relationships or platonic ones too?
>they will realise how worthless I am as a person and abandon me for it
Ahh.. fear of abandonment.
>compensate for all the effort spent on me
Not a healthy outlook, Anon. Especially with family. A lot of families can have very.. interesting views they instill on their children, but I need you to understand that people consciously put other people on this earth aware that they will have to take care of them for about two decades. This is not a debt you accrue it is the price that (ideally) two consenting adults were willing to pay for a gacha pull.
Hm. Can I interest you in a channel anoter Anon recommended me earlier? I would love to have more eyes on it and hear people's opinions. And it might have topics that seem strongly related to what you are going through. Issue is the videos are 40 mins a piece.
>I live at the mercy of people I try and constantly fail to appease
>How do you mean?
What I mean is, you said you suddenly find yourself with more time in your hands than anticipated, right? I am trying to figure out whether it is because life is unpredictable (think: a doctor moving an appointment, other people's schedules clashing) or if it is something that is more in your control (personal schedule).
>Can't remember the last time I engaged in my hobby, can't find the passion for it anymore.
You probably are too survival brained right now for it. I can assure you that passion is something you can recultivate though, if it helps. It won't be lost for good.
>I really need to practice my skills again if I wanna break into an actual career in a year's time.
It's borderline impossible to feel it until you experience it, I'm happy you get to!
>>40290768
>>40291128
>>40291156
(1/2)
>I've given up on any relationships at all really, so I don't even know if it will matter.
Trust me that, as much as it makes sense to you right now, it is not going to help you with your goals to remain steadfast in it. Do you mean romantic relationships or platonic ones too?
>they will realise how worthless I am as a person and abandon me for it
Ahh.. fear of abandonment.
>compensate for all the effort spent on me
Not a healthy outlook, Anon. Especially with family. A lot of families can have very.. interesting views they instill on their children, but I need you to understand that people consciously put other people on this earth aware that they will have to take care of them for about two decades. This is not a debt you accrue it is the price that (ideally) two consenting adults were willing to pay for a gacha pull.
Hm. Can I interest you in a channel anoter Anon recommended me earlier? I would love to have more eyes on it and hear people's opinions. And it might have topics that seem strongly related to what you are going through. Issue is the videos are 40 mins a piece.
>I live at the mercy of people I try and constantly fail to appease
>How do you mean?
What I mean is, you said you suddenly find yourself with more time in your hands than anticipated, right? I am trying to figure out whether it is because life is unpredictable (think: a doctor moving an appointment, other people's schedules clashing) or if it is something that is more in your control (personal schedule).
>Can't remember the last time I engaged in my hobby, can't find the passion for it anymore.
You probably are too survival brained right now for it. I can assure you that passion is something you can recultivate though, if it helps. It won't be lost for good.
>I really need to practice my skills again if I wanna break into an actual career in a year's time.