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>>82774361
if you made her think she is the bad person in all of this and she's unable to move on, after some time passes, it might be something to consider if you should send a final closure message, letting her know you don't hate her or anything, so she doesn't live a paranoid life thinking she did wrong or something like that, if you think this is the case. or maybe she'll reach out to you herself eventually. don't know the details so take this with a grain of salt though, but I think it's likely the whole thing traumatized both of you.
>Crashing out to the point she's self-harmed over it does come to mind.
mentally ill people getting together and having abusive relationships... you've fucked up badly, but you're trying to get better. even if you can't undo what you've done, at least this experience will make you less susceptible to hurting others again. well wishes to you and her.