I would still be pursuing women if I didn't let an older dude fuck and creampie me. I was still with my ex gf when it happened. We had a break and she did see another guy so I was jealous as fuck and tried to get back at her but you know, getting girls is hard so after smoking and drinking way too much I went on grindr. I was like 25, and immediatly got a lot of messages. Among them a burly 50 yo-ish bearded dude. I went to his appartment very nervous. We talked a bit, he kept touching me and telling me he wanted to fuck me and it made me very excited.
And some point, i dont even know how, I'm almost naked, on his lap, with his tongue in my mouth. I felt him getting harder and overwhelmed with lust I fall on my knees an pull down his pants. Thick, uncut, veiny dick. It should have grossed me out but I was in such a state that I had his dick in my mouth immediatly.
Sucked him for a long time, he also started fingering me, I actually had the reflex to block his hand when he put a finger but not long after he had two fingers in me while I was licking his precum.
He then grabbed me and started eating me out and that's when I trully lost it and went full slut.
He told me to sit on his cock. Made me inhale popper and told me to take it. I had to push down to make him enter me, it hurt but was so pleasant at the same time. I tried to ride him but I was awful, didn't know how to move lol. So he put me on all four and fucked me like a bitch. It was overwhelming so I asked him to put it out but he didn't listen and just kept fucking me harder. He then stop and ask me "wanna stop now? Or you want more?" and I said "more".
I walked home with two of his loads inside. I'm ashamed to say I pushed his loads on my hand and slurped them while jacking off thinking about what just happened.