>>82497499
i spend like 20 times more thinking about playing video games than actually playing my "favorite" game. i just browse and rot, and work a bottom barrel part time job some days. nothing interesting happens in my life, i have nothing to talk about. copes aren't really helping cope anymore, haven't been for a long time. i have no friends, and the lack of socialization is really getting to me to the point of suicidial thoughts lately. i wish loneliness didn't hurt so much. wish i had a friend or something, too bad i'm a mentally ill introverted boring loser no one wants to be around.