I'm gonna eat something, but I'm going to be horrified by this world in the meantime. I don't know how it works and I don't know why it's so crazy. I was a "new Adam", not knowing any sin and I learned it all through the internet and went insane. God crushed me with eye illnesses like he said he would do in Exodus. I sat there as an innocent kid not knowing any sin whatsoever, and learned sin through the internet, and lost my mind. I knew true love didn't exist because of what I learned. I learned about the true nature of God's reality and I learned that the god of this world was just trying to rein in certain aspects of humanity to make them more amenable to teaching. There was never anything great available in experiencing the world, only pain, and the more you learn the greater pain you accrue. Life has no purpose.

I was the Davidic King who gave up on having kids because I wouldn't want to curse them into this Hellscape