I just turned 36 and am more blackpilled than ever. I got a bit of a late start in education. Homeschooled to start, dropped out of high school, couldn't handle college. I probably needed a tutor, but my parents couldn't see nor could they afford one if they noticed. After years of floundering "what do i do what do i do" I finally made a decision at the late age of 25 my "path". It was 1) get into the trades 2) become a mechanic 3) save and start my own business. Here I am 11 years later with nothing to show for it. There's no opportunity for me to get ahead. "Working class" is a joke. The trades are a fucking joke. I show up every day on time, i don't fuck around, I do what I'm told. my peers like and admire me. got "promoted" to an office role. i looked at my new career trajectory and realized none of this is worth it. i quit. i work part time as at lowes now, stocking shelves after hundreds of applications went no where.

and now that i'm 36, I am really thinking about giving up entirely. the carrot is ALWAYS is front of the horse. I have never been late on rent since I started paying it at 17. Never, not once. That's 19 years of on time rent payments, and you know what? I guess I'm gonna continue being a forever renter because being in poverty and just getting by seems like a better alternative after a decade plus of literal physical labor doesn't advance my life or pay off in any way, like "owning" a home. I was approved for a mortgage and the total wasn't even half of the average home price. I'm fucking over it guys. I thought this was supposed to be the boomer pathway to success? grind hard, put in the hours, and it will pay off. it's been a decade. where's the payoff?

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