>>40666225
>I fantasize all day desu, my head is constantly generating scenarios n stuff, too creative for my own good
i meant specifically about nuclear war, sorry for not being more clear. imagination is nice and i enjoy it too, just specifically not about things dying. dno. sorry if it came off wrong.
>death used to be frightening but now that i have realized how short life is and also having survived my entire family has put things into new perspective. I don't actually want to die but if the old fat shit upstairs could push some buttons I really wouldn't mind
im glad you arent actively killing yourself out of boredom. it'd be a shame to see you doing something pointless like that.
>like I basically have seen everything I wanted/can see and have been through all the happy, sad and terrifying experiences my life has to offer, so it's basically just watching days go by knowing nothing new will ever come, nothing will change anymore.
yeah. i basically agree. once you've felt the most intense experiences of life, the rest is just a recital. from a hedonistic point of view, it's over. you can only burn out so hard until you're burned out. or maybe thats just what they call maturity. i feel like if i was able to have children maybe it wouldn't be as bad. its a silly hope but some day i'd like to not be a human anymore.
>tedium in aeternum
infernum aeternum omnibus