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Thank you for the long response siganon, I appreciate it.
>https://www.youtube.com/@heidipriebe1 from the resources (see OP)
I will check these out and the other sources in the OP, thank you.
>First off, do you have friends/acquaintances you wanna get close to?
I have my best friend and we live together but we seem disconnected nowadays. All she does is play Warframe and when we hang out that's all she wants to do, it isn't very interesting and I've been bored whenever I'm with her. It's become more and more like roommates than best friends. She also recently went off her meds and has become more emotionally volatile again.
Otherwise, I recently made a friend who's similar to me and we're going to a concert in September together cause she lives nearby. In terms of friendships, people try to be close to me and make friends with me but it makes me feel suffocated and want to push them away. I feel the opposite in relationships.
I seldom leave the house, mostly due to not passing, and this makes it hard to make friends as well. I recently got a lot better with it and thought I had made a breakthrough, but then got depressed and the idea of leaving the house feels terrifying. I'm getting FFS soon which will hopefully help.
>Do you feel safe in your current environment, what is it like?
My current environment is safe, I've lived with my best friend away from the abusive environment for a few years now. I'm often very lonely.
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