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i am more than that, despite your tendency to see gays solely as shallow pleasure-seekers. sucking dick and taking it up the ass are just one of many things i do with my life.
and what's your way to cope with pain and existential dread? deluding yourself that there's a god out there listening to your prayers and sometimes granting you wishes? does it really chase away the emptiness and fear of death when you're alone? does it really give you purpose? because i've seen deeply religious people absolutely frozen in terror and scrambling as they realise their time is running out soon. all the decades of worship and devotion did very little to give them peace and serenity in their final moments. you'd expect them to be happy to finally meet their maker and loved ones who passed on before them, yet all i saw was dread and clinging on to this supposedly meaningless earthly existence.
i find it curious how you're going out of your way to convince me i should somehow either stop being attracted to men or to repress it with your religion. believe me, anon, i tried. i've been desperately trying to believe in god and find meaning in scripture and rituals, none of it worked. i still felt lost and alone, afraid of death and crushed by lack of purpose and meaning. i still feel these feelings sometimes, i just accepted them as part of life and stopped trying to chase them away with prayer. i sought out my own path and reinvented my spirituality on my own terms. i'm still seeking, still making mistakes, still failing and still occasionally feeling miserable, but at least i'm finally getting somewhere with it and getting genuine improvements in my well-being.
honestly, it kinda feels to me like you're not as secure in your own belief system as you make it out to be. seems to me you're trying to convince yourself by arguing against me. i've been there too, trying to convert people to christianity as my own faith was failing me.