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The arrangement cautions against feeling that you are doing better than you think. The conflict represented in the five of swords is laid bare by your question. The plentitude of the 9 of cups leading to our resolution in the inverted four of swords indicates that feelings of fulfillment in the present will lead to self-sabotage and stagnation in the future.

It is likely that your insecurity stems from acknowledgement of failure to handle some problems optimally. Do not congratulation yourself at this time for small efforts. Redouble your resolve and work hard for the future you want. Beware pleasing people or making changes that simply avoid conflict.