My parents were literally textbook betabux-alpha fux
with my dad being the beta who worked constatnly at his tech job and my mom being the aging trophy wife

I watched her just make fun of and treat him like shit constantly and started to resent him for being such a pussy bitch.
I also am a diagnosed aspie, and you would think the other kids in school would make fun of me but they never erally did, the only person who made me feel like a loser for being an intoverted little nerd was my mom. like I would get high school level bullying from my mom but the other kids at school would just ignore me

Before I even started spending a lot of time on the internet/incel spaces I pretty much came up with "blackpill" theory on my own