>>721181559
>PLAYAN
Quake 1 and TF2
>WATCHAN
Ron White
>LISTENAN
Ghetto Boyz
>READAN
The Rum Diary
>EATAN
Chicken and sweet potatoes
>DRINKAN
Crani-yum energy and water
>FAPPAN
Shortstacks
>FEELAN
I understand that the reason for my depression in the fact that I do not see a better future for myself and the world. I would like to cope in any way possible but from an objective standpoint things are getting noticeably worse with no end in view.
>inb4 blackpill
I was think earlier: in 2015 I am where I am mentally right now and when from that mindset to finding a million different ways to cope believing whatever I wanted to and convincing myself it was real, the reasons why I left the older mindset and transitioned into the new, and why I was going to stick with it. Now, I've arrived at that exact same conclusion again despite "winning" at life.
>Attractive
>Had an active sex life in my 20s
>Got my dream job
>Made more money than ever to where rent an bills were never a problem
>Still depressed
And that's not even adding to the fact I've been a NEET for nearly the past year looking for a job, but apparently I can manage hospital, schools, and factories in 2024 but in 2025 I'm not even qualified to be a goddamn pizza delivery driver. There's a fear that if/when I do get something it will just be for survival and at this point I'm terrified to make a decision in life not knowing how things will go. My dream is dead and now I don't know what to do.

>>512779682
>30yo
>rocked and rolled through my 20s fucking everything that moved
>somehow managed to work myself into an operations analyst position making shy of 6 figures
>you don't understand how fucked the entire system is until you're behind the scenes looking at numbers and logistics
>crash out, quit job, and have spent the past 8 months in a doomer pit trying to force myself to reintegrate into society
I have enough money saved as a down payment on a house but it is now being used to support me looking for work. There have been a few jobs I've worked but I can't last more than a month before I want to blow my head off. I've wanted to go back to being an electrician but even the trades have retarded jobs requirements like needing a 2 year degree. Modern society fucking blows. 2020 really fucked normies up. I have bought a 9mm pistol and have finger fucked the trigger with it loaded and pointed at my head. I don't wanna die, but I am accepting this might be how my story ends if/when I run out of money.