>apply for jobs after finishing rehab
>get a job offer for one job that has additional things tacked on
>doing onboarding
>start feeling like shit
the job was just supposed to be minding a fuel station but suddenly had being a grocery cashier tacked on and while I can handle fuel attendant stuff, being cashier feels like it would really be tough bc I have very bad social anxiety and also anorexia I've been in recovery for for a number of years but like on worried being around food so much and interacting with so many people is going to make me relapse with either eating disorder stuff or drug use or cutting and I'll end up backsliding
I also don't want to bitch out but I feel like either way I'm setting myself up for failure
stay with the job knowing it's going to be highly triggering
it and could cause relapses
or
abandon the job without other offers, delaying getting back to working and maybe moving out
idk what to do and I'm at the point where it's like I just want to kms more than usual
