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>sadly I do
>and they are definitely not nice
i misunderstood you again, im sorry. i thought you were saying your dreams are the engines of your imagination. despite trying, im not a very good listener. i assume it's bad memories? i hope that at least reliving them gives you a break from the boredom. i enjoy anger, and crying, and fear, and pain a lot because it makes life feel exciting again for a while. but thats probably very strange. in your case, it seems like maybe cptsd. it would be nice to see you recover from what's troubling you. even if life can't be exciting, maybe it can be relaxing someday.