I don't know what I'd even say if I was to go get myself diagnosed at this point as I actively try to forget the past and it's been so long and attempting to explain all the symptoms would be hard and I suck at explaining things and it makes me anxious and it would all be pointless in the end anyway. I don't think I'll ever fix my life but I wish I could be able to focus like I used to and I wish I wasn't as anxious around people.