I'm not sure how I should feel.

When I have a magic cat dream, it releases dopamine. Sometimes, it gets me through the day. Other times, I'm straight up walking on a cloud. On days when I don't have one of these dreams, I experience withdrawal. I feel sober. I feel foolish for having ever seen myself as a cat.

Last night, I had a weird dream where I transformed into the (male) Silver Surfer and slammed Freddy Krueger beneath my flying surfboard. Technically, I started out the dream as the cat.

I don't feel sobriety, withdrawal, or elation. I just feel weird. It's like I unknowingly drank decaf coffee and I'm experiencing a placebo effect.