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And at the end of it all, I still find myself ready to go. I am tired of trying. Tired of all the effort. I don't know of I am a trans girl. It is undeniable that I like how I look in girl clothes. I like thinking about being a girl. I want to be cute, and sweet (?), and soft. I am jealous of some people's natural cuteness. Awake (?? says 'Awaik') had a cute girl outfit. Even when arrested in the cop car, we could be very cute. Not me tho. I look like an ogre. I want to be the black mask. Hollow face. That's how you will view me when I am gone. I am a dark, evil void. I wish I could live my life in a mask. I don't know how this all got started. But I can tell you exactly how it will end! These faggots are incapable of performing simple tasks. I will not help you because of your fake nails. I mean, I will to keep up the facade. My courtesy is not infinite tho. [at the bottom, in Russian, large letters: KILL YOURSELF! DIE!]