I should probably head to bed.
Still coughing and sneezing, and theres no fucking way Im going to make it to the office Monday. They’ve been very kind to me though. My prototype project is nearly done so… thats a relief. Still kind of avoiding my family and the doctor and other issues a bit. Still trying not to drink too much or eat too little. Still trying to stay present in the present.

I’m probably going to see if I can say a quick hello from a distance to some of the work out people on way to pick up meds and dishwasher cleaner tomorrow.
I… feel kind of attracted to one of them but I know it’s because Ive essentially been locked inside with sparse and sporadic physical interactions for nearly half a decade. … I feel like I need to feel somebody to feel better and progress. Or at least learn how to be kinder to myself, sexually.
That’s embarrassing. Ultimately human, but…
Not the kind of self improvement you’d normally tell anyone but a select few friends about after a couple of beers.

… so I guess I’ll… See what I can do about that. Eventually. Sleep tight