>>41592624
>real reasons
a big tangled mess of things.
short version is i don't actually like being alive - emotionally but also just on a day-to-day physical level - and i think suicide is an ok thing to do in this situation; i'm not upset about my impending death and i'm not looking to be talked out of it or to be given a reason to live.

(not gonna bump my own thread again after this because i doubt it's interesting enough to survive on its own merits)