How do I learn to be mean to women and lose control of my emotions? Whenever I hear "you're marriage material" "my parents love you" "I had almost given up on men until I met you" "you're the most mature man I've ever met" I have a 100% success rate of predicting that I will never see that person again. In 30+ occasions of hearing that I'm a perfect man, I have been ghosted. It is starting to seriously depress me that so many women really compliment me but refuse to actually date me or give me closure.
I have never since becoming a teenager felt the need to go and be alone during an argument and 'cool down' or exploded at someone and acted like a baby. I have always been able to talk it out and either see the other side, reach a middle ground, or explain my side. I genuinely cannot remember the last time I have yelled at someone.
One thing I have seen as a universal in all relationships - from living with my parents, siblings, and friends - is people exploding at each other over minor things and being unable to explain their point or control their emotions. My roommates sometimes act like children over genuine accidents the other has made. Every single time I've had a disagreement while dating, I've never exploded at anybody, even if it's happened to me.
Women complain about men being emotionally underdeveloped a lot but I'm starting to feel they actually would prefer me to lose control, to hurt them and others. I feel women are embarrassed to have me as a boyfriend because I do not rage at others, and have the capacity to yield if I think the other person is more reasonable than I am. How do I learn to lose control at people, to yell at the women I date and get frustrated with them, and to hurt others over small things? I would prefer not to be single forever and I feel like this would help me, even though it is not something I want to do to be loved.