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Simply for the disrespect, fuck that nigga, lol! I also fantasize about torturing rats and hamsters. I want to take (?) them down and burn them with fireworks and blow torches. I have seen videos of similar subject and the [? hard to translate, says 'wei', maybe wait] then trash and wrap them around, struggling (? says 'strogling') against the restraints. I don't seem to have any interest in doing any of that to humans. I feel like if I am going to go that far and act on my urges, I would just do what I really want to do and go commit a mass shooting! God, I am so sick of Aby. Today then broke down crying and I had to consult (? says 'consol') them by sitting there with them and pretending to care. I barely was able to pay enough attention to here what they where saying so I could respond and keep up the charade. I fucking realised I don't need to shoot Aby to kill them! If I wanted to, ...