It's my second time going to the psychiatrist and he still didn't give me any ritalin. He says my attention problems will away after my ocd and depression gets better. But that's bullshit. I know it won't. He is ruining my life. I need ritalin. I wanna be able to sit down and work. I wanna be able to read books. I never finished a single book in my fucking life. Why is he so stubborn about it. He could give me some just for a month and see how it goes. I wanna buy some illegally now but then he'll get pissed probably. He acknowledged my adhd, he's not denying it, he just won't give me the medication i need.