Hello everyone, this is my first time here after wandering around the internet, maybe you guys will have some advice for me.

Do people need a really great or crazy reason to motivate themselves? I just turned 18, studying at university, of course I have plans for the future, but it also makes me feel meaningless. I went out to work, interacted with more people, but everything was still bad. I still had no interest or motivation in anything around me, I simply existed, reacted very normally to everything that happened, good or bad. I turned to cigarettes and love relationships but they were not very optimistic. Do you think I should come up with some crazy plan or change the world and stick to it even though it was very strange?