Question, where can I find a Japanese loser who I can manipulate into becoming my friend so I can get a gateway to their culture?

Sometimes it feels like I'm even lonelier than you guys. At the very least you bunch are able to lick each other's wounds. I on the other hand I'm in an extremelly akward position where I'm too good of a person to agree with the shit you all say and at the same time too evil to hangout with the normies, which ends up making me a social outcast among social outcasts.