>>82253392
i go outside at night and walk to the store with my headphones on. i get a monster and walk up to the counter. maybe small talk with the cashier as they ring me up. i pay and walk out, make sure to take the long way home and just clear my head for a bit with the fresh air. tomorrow i have to go to work. ive worked there for 6 months and still cant seem to make a single friend, not like i havent tried. no one bothers to talk to me anymore outside of my boss who just tells me what needs to be done. everyone already are in their own little cliques. most people in this little town have lived here their whole life and have had close friends since their childhood. i never had that luxury due to my tumultuous childhood and me constantly changing hands and moving. most people have already developed their social circle. i miss school cause that was the only place i could really meet people. even then they were just lunchbox friends. nobody wants to be randomly approached and harassed, i cant just go up to people and start talking to them at events like people say, ive tried and end up just looking like a creep. what am i supposed to do? i even put up some posts online in groups in my area, seeing if anybody was lookin to start a band cause im a guitarist and a bassist. nothing. i have become a ghost living in the background of the world. i am the stranger in the backdrop of a group photo. i am unknown and therefore nothing.