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>I unfortunately do.
How does it generally work out for you?
>but I still feel I'm not doing enough, since I could exercise more regularly.
I understand that temptation too well. But the important thing, which ties into what I said earlier, is to be strict with oneself in both directions. You are too used to only think of "doing too little". Remember, it is objectively better to do 30% 100% of the time than to manage 100% 10% of the time.
>Yeah, that's a creative task and I won't delude myself I have an imagination
A creative task - any particular one - would be a boon for emotional regulation alone. Of course, that would require you to enjoy the process and not hate the end result for being flawed.. the latter half of this sentence can be a WIP.
I can't say much about the k8s but as for exercise: do you have dedicated time slots for it?
What about, for example, creating time slots for other things too. Rest, reading, etc? One key limitation for you right now is you overexerting yourself which drains you.
>What a nice joke, thank you, siganon, I needed this laugh.
Oh Anon.. sounds like your inner circle is quite sparse then?
>So my real question is how do people do things without being ordered to?
Yeah this is the part I didn't really answer above, how to keep yourself accountable when self punishments don't work.
>Candy to make me fat?
>Exercise which I postpone already and is a goal?
>Games or manga which will keep me up all night and feed my insomnia?
Several of these can be moderated with the same measurable and time bound arsenal you already employ I believe. Here's a thing; how prone are you do "number go up" endorphins? You know, high scores, keeping count of successes, that sorta stuff. Journaling scratches that particular itch and can be used to tickle your reward system.
>And also, being controlled seems a return to less safe places.
Yeah I get that, so I am shelving that for now.