>>82384470
It's no wonder you hate life. You spend so much of it obsessing over wanting to die. That would make anyone miserable. Passive suicidal ideation is a brain parasite. Best way to deter it is by simply adding a "don't" into the repeating mantra. Even if you don't believe it, try it a few times and see what your mind does with it.

"I DON'T want to kill myself. I DON'T wish I wete dead."