>>60558795
Only the self-centered and self-absorbed develop these kinds of problems, and then dwell on them incessantly. I suggest getting a life, and getting out of the house once in a while. Get some goals that don't involve solely just making yourself useful to amoral, undependable, and utterly valueless strangers, like corporate bureaucracies, religious cults, and bizarre ideologies that have no redeeming purpose and do nothing but focus on marginalizing human nature and humanity in general.

Do some volunteer work, get involved in real politics, like your local town or city's, and avoid the grandiose bullshit, like philosophy and other psuedo-intellectual pursuits until you can put them in some kind of relation and proportion to real life. Until then, you haven't the first clue of what is really important and what isn't. No, you're not all that much better than anybody else, whatever their color or other accidents of birth.

Fuck sitting around whining and neurotically analyzing yourself all the time, and get used to the fact that more often than not, people are petty and trained to look for flaws, not redeeming features, and that mentality has obviously influenced you and hence your own distorted views of yourself.

In other words just shut the fuck up with all the adolescent sniveling and whining about how you measure up to 'society', whatever that is, and accept that you ain't really shit to the vast majority of the world, you're not that important in the grand scheme of things just because you were born, and it doesn't give two shits whether you are 'happy' or not or about your 'self esteem', so either go out and make yourself important, even if it's only one person at a time, one day a week, or just sit around like some spoiled bored little Princess with 'nothing to do' and just suck air all day because the world isn't kissing your ass and pampering your neurotic wittle feewings.