Why are Asian pussies so small and tight?

Random ass folder dump, but worth discussing;
has any other brown, asian or black boy seen their constant anger against white males (which we often hide behind a layer of cope pretending its about white women) devolve into a guilty obsession for their cocks? I'm asian, i would start posting BNWO stuff to cope despite knowing it was some sketchy surrealistic tranny fetish, but eventually it boiled down to the fact i wanted to annoy or "cuck" white men, it was all a cope comeback because i feel jealous of them because our women pick their genes over ours and they are just bugger, taller, stronger, etc than us.
And I found myself am constantly thinking about them.
My brain was basically colonized.
Eventually I began hatefapping and becoming addicted to WMAF, I get diamond hard about it, I can't help but realize all asian women just prefer them. I I even hooked up my sister with a white coworker of mine and she went with it lol.
I can't get over my guilty BWC fetish now
I can't see any cute k-pop girl without imagine her being carried and fucked by some white dude.
What should I do