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Look, this is all weird as fuck. I know it is, and I wouldn’t believe it either if you were writing to me about it. But now, weirdly, it seems like the only thing that could’ve happened. Like, it was definitely destiny or something. Jung (yeah, I’m somewhat well-read) said that if you don’t confront your shadow it will chase you your whole life and you will call it fate. Well, smart guy I guess. And he thought the end of the world would occur around 2050. Isaac Newton saw the end happening no sooner than 2060. I digress, but maybe not. So, to Jung the shadow was the part of your personality you suppressed to get along with other people in life. His teachings say that individuation is when you integrate the unconscious parts of yourself into conscious awareness and boom you’re whole. So it’s, like, a force of nature, the human personality, and it’s unfolding is the purpose of our lives, I think. But what if someone, like a psychopath, doesn’t have anything you could call a personality? Psychopaths have extremely lowered activity in the frontal lobe, the part of the brain responsible for executive function, which is the, like, all the simulations we play out in our head to see which outcomes are the best for everyone involved, and this is the foundation of our personality and psychopaths basically lack this cognitive ability so how can they even achieve wholeness in the Jungian sense when they literally haven’t surpressed anything for anyone’s sake? It’s like, a weird blackhole of personailty. Like mirrors facing eachother and you just see the back of your own head going on forever. So, yeah, forget psychopaths for now anyway, this thing I’m writing could be interpreted as my individuation process, or running like a maniac from my shadow, but it really goes beyond the normal orders of experience. Things the normal human emotional system doesn’t even know what to do with. Preternatural. And common language parlays this beautifully ironically: “jumping at his own shadow”, “a shadow of his former self”. For me, this shit is Netflix. Like, you just have to laugh at it all or you’ll be too headfucked to make a choice. And there are too many of them to make anyway.

I told someone earlier today that when I lift at the gym I think of Shadow the Hedgehog and they said that was gay. Who was in the wrong here?