>>83036487
I have a Ukraine war drone footage fetish.
Reason: I was already a bit of a sadist but then I fell in love in love with a (involuntary) conscript and due to my anxiety/autism imagined his death so many times that I started getting aroused by it as a coping mechanism to stop the constant mental agony it caused me. At first I felt so guilty I wanted to kill myself but now I just live with it I guess. I at least stopped getting off to the actual videos since I avoid them like the plague but now I just use AI stories or even write my own instead.