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>Tarot: 2P / 10W / Wheel of Fortune
>Lenormand: Ship + Anchor + Cross
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Your feelings of disillusionment and apathy stem from the burden of numerous small "weights" placed upon you. i.e., In the past you cared too much, and now it's causing you to feel trapped and isolated. In slightly more abstract terms, it's easier to disengage from family, friends, and society because you believe engaging with them will be even more unpleasant than your current feelings of isolation. While in the past you were able to juggle multiple responsibilities with ease, the cumulative incidental effects of your effort have been exhausted. "Why keep rowing against the river?" you ask yourself.

As for your future, heaven's wheel spins in your favor. While there's a natural cycle of "ups" and "downs," you'll soon enter an "up" cycle—fortune will soon be on your side.

Your Lenormand reading is Ship + Anchor + Cross: You're currently trapped on a long, burdensome journey. I drew one more card (not in the image), and it was Clover, telling me there's a happy ending to this journey. You'll get a job, but it'll take a bit of luck. That is to say, even if you do everything right (i.e., meet all the requirements) it will still take an extra "push" outside of your control. I have confidence, and so should you.