>>82406238
>Im dealing with lots of death
I'm not sure if you mean literally, but if so then I'm sorry. That was the same reason I've been depressed those years and it completely changed me. I can't really offer any advice I'm sorry, but best I can say is it'll get better in the future, don't worry. I've became mentally ill too during those years, not sure if I still recovered but I'm no longer fasting and burning letters for an idol so there's that