>>512098177
Nice brother and same with myself. Drank for a decade in fleeting attempt at stifling my crippling depression and ultimately making everything worse. I quit 2 years ago but it wasn't me. I looked up AA places near by but none in my city, just everywhere but here. So, I got down my knees and humbled myself by asking God for help. I thought why tf not? I have nothing to lose by asking for help by some "imaginary" being right? So I said fuck it. I surrendered myself Him and apologized for being what I was. A few years rolled down but I felt something that I can't even put into words now. Like a vibrational bolt of lightning. I felt odd so I decided to go to bed early. When I woke up the next day I had completely lost my thirst for alcohol. I wasn't grossed out by it or anything but it had zero appeal. After a few days I was even more weirded out because the thirst hadn't returned. To the point where I almost wanted it back so I could go back to what I knew. I finally understood the basic mentality of the the guy who went to prison for a decade, gets out, and after a few months, purposely violated parole in order to go back to what he knew. I even work around it at my job and I have tried to rationalize it from every possible angle and it comes down to intervention from a much higher power. I'm proud of you however you were able to do it, but proud all the same. Sorry that you had to go to the looney bins for a while.