>>528628748
how would you know i have people that would like to get to know me? how would you know if i push anybody away? people don't want to know me. if i'm lucky they'll parasitically attach themselves to me and i won't mind it much. i have so, so much warmth i want to share and i am absolutely powerless to stop myself from doing so even at my own expense.
i want to want and be wanted, i want to adore and be adored. i want to be somebody's first and last thought every day. i want to feel somebody *else's* warmth for fucking once man, just one time ever.
>>528628862
i started reading spinoza's ethics but haven't really read much of it or in general lately sorry gamer