the idea of having sex or being intimate with a woman cripples me, it's so bad, at least men initiate when im with women i never can initiate. when i see a beautiful woman i want to put my penis inside of her but feel a deep pit in my stomach knowing i do not have a dick and so i just dont do anything because even thought of me myself touching a woman as a woman disgusts me. i wish i was a man, i hate my small, disgusting female body and i can barely live like this anymore. when i have sex w men its because its the only thing that stops me from being too alone. i have and never will be loved, no man or woman will ever love me because i am a disgusting weird freak who is undeserving of love. and my body will never be normal and i will never be normal and eventually i hope i will just fade away, everyone leaves me in the end because they realize that i am not normal and never will be normal, i will always be a disgusting freak, unable to ever deeply connect with another person in any shape or form, every interaction i have with others is shallow and meaningless and no one will ever truly know the true me because the true me is so pathetic and embarrassing i could never bare to share it with anyone

its so over bros i wish reincarnation was real so id be a bug in my next life

But I'll never have it...have you lost hope, /pol/?