my goal is to look somewhat effeminate as a skinny twink but still have a masculine personality and the mental strength that comes with it, I'm not taking estrogen / crossdressing or anything.
I hope that either a woman will be a submissive doormat for me and make me feel good, which is fine, or she'll secretly have fantasies of domming me which I'd be glad to let her try, while also doing my best to "resist" mentally so it's exciting for the both of us