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When you spend too long by yourself you become insane though. I've been alone my whole life lad, I don't even know how to begin considering another person's feelings or thoughts. I'm genuinely a weird and unpleasant person.

People will go out there way to be nice to me at work, ask me a question or something, and I'll shut them down instantly. I don't even mean to be a prick but internally I think I've resigned myself that nothing can ever happen between me and another person so I just think fuck it why bother, why get my hopes up, let's just get this torpedoed right now.

I love women and find them deeply attractive but I'm just meant to be alone. It would be unkind to attempt a relationship at this point.