Ive been prone masturbating since I was 8.
I would squish my limp penis against a pillow and rock my hips til I came. While limp.
I tried to quiet when I was 16, 18, and 22. No luck. I did nofap for a month and tried to masturbate the normal way. Couldn't cum.
Then I was sleeping 5 hours a night while wagecucking for 5 years. Killed my libido and boners.
Now I am a NEET for 3 weeks after missing 4500 hours of sleep and my boners are coming back a bit.
But I still have ED
I avoid masturbating at all.
I have tightness in the back of my scrotum, perineum, and where my scrotum meets my thigh it feels like there's a string in there.
Probably squashed some tube.
My mattress spring broke because of that and now it sags so I'm gonna have to buy a new one for the second time.
I probably destroyed my penis.
Only way I can have sex is with Viagra, but I also have fucked up sinuses (probably nasal polyps but the fucking doctors wouldnt believe me and just gave me fluticasone which barely helps) from my factory job where I breathed isopropyl and monoethylamine fumes.
So when I take the viagra it makes my congestion even worse cause of the lower blood pressure. And I have to mouthbreathe which I HATE. I'm not even fat!
Even then I can't cum and only lasted 5 to 15 minutes before going limp and even when it was 15 my erection was like a sine wave where it only stayed hard for like 3 or 4 minutes then I had to make out and touch tits again to get it hard again.
It fuckin sucks I am thinking of trying Cialis so I don't have to "plan ahead" when I get laid because it's a daily pill. But I also heard it fucks up your vision potentially.
I'm just fucked all around.