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>Out of curiosity, what do you say to men who are trying to pick up the broken pieces of their spirituality who still find themselves drawn to the affections of the same sex? Are you unable to reconcile the possibility of a gay relationship serving God's will in the same way a straight one might?
There's no way a gay relationship could be reconciled with God's plan because it goes against His divine order of things. It's an unnatural and disordered sexuality. For a gay man to be redeemed, he must give up his own sexuality and sexual past and live like the saints - that is, to be celibate. Not everyone was meant to be in a relationship, marry, or procreate. And if you still struggle with temptation, then first you must flee that immorality and when you do stumble, you seek forgiveness ("go and sin no more.").
>it seemed clear to me that God was not interested in molding me into the shape of a man who appeals to women more than men.
Again, there are a multitude of reasons as to why people become who they are in regards to sexuality (genes, environment, trauma, exposure to pornography, etc). Reducing it to "God was not interested" in you honestly sounds very selfish. What makes your sins so unique that you think God wouldn't care? Could it be that you can't hear Him because you choose not to?
>I have not tired of reminding him that I am here when he needs me, and that he can call when he does.
So this is just bad theology. You're making it seem as if God needs you. It's the opposite, anon. I don't know where you are spiritually speaking, but this line of thinking is more in-line with the neognostics than any of the orthodox theologians. If you want to be truly repentant, you would deny yourself and recognize the error of your ways and find a way to both reconcile and make reparations for your behavior. But your post sadly says otherwise.