I should specify this is me, I might've gotten the column and row mixed up in my drunken stooper. My friends abandon me when I desperately need them, saying they'll give me "space". I don't need space, I need someone to be there for me, but I can't even get that. I'm honestly so sick of being hurt over and over again. I let people walk all over me because if I don't, then I wouldn't get any interaction from anyone. I'm honestly so sick of living. I'm tired of being in pain, physically, mentally, and emotionally. I'm tired of people bringing up shit that happened 8 months ago. I'm tired of constantly trying to make up for my wrongdoings. and most of all, I'm tired of living. I fucking hate my life, myself, and what I've done to people. I haven't cut in over a week, but just earlier I went really hard. I'm thinking of just cutting vertically and saying goodbye forever. Would you like that? To see me gone? I would, and I don't blame you if you do as well.