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I feel so weak. So tired. I should maybe look into some amphetamines or something to give me energy, calm my nerves, and make me a little more insane, and not care about faces and screams. I wonder what James Holmes took. I am not an insane killer. I am sane, called and calculated man. I couldn't stop thinking about bursting into that church and opening fire! I could do so much damage and death to those people. Full auto is so tempting. There also were no cameras in that church. I was picturing walking around in there with my gun, shooting these stupid victims. It would be so easy to intrude on a wedding at a church. Imagine how tragic that would be, mass shooting at a wedding, families killed. God, I saw so many good spots at the reception to open fire. There was zero cover for those idiots. It would have...