>>40902454
there's just something faustian and chthonic about the whole thing I can't resist sorry. I'm not really any different from someone who wants to become a great bodybuilder just inverted

plus it does seem to give a strange buff to the esoteric, creative and fringe abeit at a cost. Many cultures, practices and traditions have reflected this fact.

Imagine the promethian drive required to do something you know will only make your life more challenging in every single way in pursuit of one's ideal?