>>537736157
This scene really says it all. She truly does want the best for Tara. She's fucked things up and knows she fucked up, but doesn't believe that she's allowed to show any weakness. She was even willing to 'die' to try to fix some of it, though it is uncertain whether she knew she'd come back from the dead or if that was really just a 'miracle', which impacts how much that action really meant. You aren't intended to actually know Eblana's character for certain by intent.